This post will probably be my most vulnerable, audacious, out of character post to date…. As I am typing I can feel the fear attempting to creep into my mind. But over the course of the last year I’ve learned to activate my FAITH instead of my fear… So let me start with a prayer:
Lord, please help me. Let your words flow through me. Touch hearts and bless hearts through this message Lord. Amen
As most of you know I began an early learning childcare center almost two years ago. Mighty Warriors Childcare has totally transformed my life and forced me to see God in such a different lenses. I’ve learned to obey God, trust his word, keep his promises tucked away in my heart, and never allow my feelings to dictate my life.
The biggest question I’ve asked myself during this period is: What am I called to do?
Lord you told me to start a daycare but where and when are the children coming?
Lord you want me to pour my knowledge and love but I don’t have a receptive staff…
Lord, you want me to be prosperous and multiply but I have no provision…
Lord, you want me to strengthen and revitalize but I need rest…
Lord, my faith lies in you but I’m still struggling! TRUST YOU????
Lord, I’ve given everything up and I still don’t hear you. What do you want me to do?
This is pretty much the timeline of my thoughts and fears throughout this past two years. Through the lack of children, the hospitalizations of my son, struggles with employees, landlord DRAMA, lack of business knowledge, overbearing daycare parents, lack of finances, medical diagnosis and extreme back pain, tears, depression, self-doubt, and pity. I’ve finally came to a place of total surrender and complete faith in my Father. Once I surrendered a shift occurred internally and externally.
When I felt doubt God gave me Gideon’s story.
When I felt self-pity God gave me Elijah’s story.
When I felt depressed God gave me Joseph’s story.
When my tears wouldn’t stop I remembered Job’s story.
When fear entered my heart I turned to David’s story.
When God asked me to help someone who was worst off than myself I remembered Ruth’s story.
When I needed love God reminded me that Jesus died for ME( there is no greater love than this).
Finally when I felt “what else can I do” I remembered Joshua’s sun stand still prayer.
God didn’t forsake or abandon me he gave me what I needed just when I needed it. I seriously think I can write a book based upon the last two years! Ha, I haven’t lost my humor either!
And to be quite honest I’m still living one of the toughest times yet. My landlord has given me my 3rd written 30 days notice(through no fault of my own). I have decided to no longer play the cat and mouse game of more rent every _ amount of months. Therefore, I have to move within the next 30 days, and guess what… God has yet to give me the provision needed nor direction, but Remember that decision I made to stand on God’s word and keep his promises guarded in my heart! That’s a life long stance through the thick and thin. I WILL continue to trust him and be obedient to his call. It’s during the hard times God is doing his best work!
I’ve actually been praying for a property for almost a year now! 1501 Dean Street. A beautiful multi family unit that would be an amazing space to own and house the Mighty Warriors Ministry. There’s just one little detail I keep overlooking when telling people to pray for it… its 1.1 million dollars in one of the most up and coming areas of Brooklyn. But can someone touch and agree with me that nothing is impossible for God! Although many might consider me crazy for even thinking this property could be considered mine (very soon I pray) GOD IS ABLE. I know God would never give me a promise he couldn’t keep!
This has officially become my longest post to date, lol. I pray it has been encouraging and sustaining for someone who is struggling with trusting God. I pray this post will transform minds and hearts. I pray whoever reads this takes a bold step and prays an impossible prayer that only God can answer.
I love you and cannot wait to come back and share the amazing things God is doing. Please message me or comment below your Sun Stand Still Prayers!